god i wish i could stop ing things up with my boyfriend, its like we get over one problem and i create the next. sometimes i just feel like god (if there is one) is trying to make a poiint with me. As soon as i mess up i can see stright away what i should of done, if its that i shoulda put him before some i didnt know or if i shouldnt of been so bloody dozy! or explained things better so it didnt look like i was lying. but now he thinks am doing it coz i dnt care, or that i am just thinking about my self and not us, but that not the case at all i love him with all my heart but i dont think he sees that and i know am pushing him further and further away, with each nexts mess up. sometimes i really hate my self for it but he just thinks thats my way of getting attention and getting out of it with the ?crocadile tears? i feel so lost i just wanna be normal. some times i really think ive git something wrong with me like am slow or something, coz i never seem to learn things never seem to go in. and now it got to the point where i know its just a matter of time before he ends it and i have no choice but to except it. i no am annoying and clumsy, but its not because its not my stuff its cz i cant help it, i just wish i ada bit more common sense and could do the right thing instead of the wrong, am just so scared and lost what can i do?