Well, first of all you need to take a deep breath...you didn't really say WHAT exactly you have messed up? You said you are clumsy and he thinks you lie and do things just to make him mad. Start with the most recent thing that has caused you to feel this way so we can all try to help you. Without knowing specifics, it is tough to give some advice! Cheer up though, we are all great listeners and try to help out as best we can!