Drama, I am so worried about you. I can tell you are just hanging on by a string. It breaks my heart to hear the desperation you are feeling. It was really cool to hear from Carly. I am sure she felt so much of what you are feeling at the time she was going through her situation. The good thing is you can tell she has cycled through all that and is on the upside of life. It is true that every persons life is unique and outcomes are never the same as the next persons. I know you don't want to think of the worst case scenario, and there truly isn't a worst case for you. You are healthy, your kids are healthy and love you, you are young and have so much to live for. You deserve love and will have love. I think it is great that you are online telling your story and putting your feelings out there. It doesn't surprise me at all that you are getting offers from all over the place. You are right, sex is always readily available, and you are also right not to just go get some sex to help ease your pain. That is so smart. A lot of women wouldn't be that strong....it would almost be a revenge statement to Don. You can always feel proud that you didn't do that! Let all those men compliment you....compliments always help when you are feeling down. Moment by moment is just fine for you to work through. Don't let anyone tell you different. I don't like when people tell you what they would or wouldn't do in "your" situation. Nobody really knows until it happens to them. Those same people will have a situation come up soon after you ask them for advice and they seem to make horrible choices, or choices you wouldn't make, a friend never says I told you so, or you are so stupid for hanging in there...blah, blah, blah. I always say to follow your heart. You will hear me repeat that a million times. Your heart may not lead you down the best path, but until it is done feeling how it wants to feel, there is no sense in putting it through just because some friend said they KNOW exactly what will happen. It really does suck being out here in cyber space trying to help someone though. Ya just want to stop by that persons house and drag em' out (even if you have to take a box of kleenex with you) and go see a movie, go walk, go drink, laugh, cry, bad talk the guy, talk good about the guy, lend a shoulder, threaten bodily harm on him! Please just keep responding and telling us how you feel and what is going on. Keep talking to all those guys out there and getting compliments too....