ive been reading your posts and you dont know how much i wish i had the magic words to make it all better for you. ive never been in a situation like yours, but i can imagine that if you search deep down in your soul youll know the truth, it might not be the truth you want to hear, but it will be there somewhere. but i still think your in a state of shock about it all so when youll be able to see that truth god only knows, maybe am just soppy like that, but thats what i believe. really think a good girly holiday or even day/night out will cheer you up though,esoecially if you try and avoid the subject of your problems!

am really sorry i dont have any advice for you, but try and be strong, who knows what the future holds, i know thats easyer said then done, i just thought another friendly voice may make you feel a bit better.

hope things work out for you hun