mbrowning...time is your only cure. I think a lot of us have the same story about the high school love. I had a baby with mine and he rejected us, I went on with life but thought about the past a lot. Our daughter graduated high school over 3 years ago (we live in different states) and he and his wife came up for her graduation (she did see him occasionally through her life from age 12 on) and the first few times I saw him (way back when she first started seeing her dad), it hit me hard too...that has been almost 9 years ago and I only have "fond" memories of way back then. It was a sweet young love thing, he broke my heart but I kept hanging on to the deep love I felt as a young girl. Time has helped, I have had a ton of things happen in my life-2 marriages failed and on my 3rd one with the greatest man (well, he has his moments) but looking back only makes me smile and be thankful for the man I married to. Memories have a way of playing tricks on our minds. Just pour yourself into your marriage and do sweet things for your husband, he will hopefully return some sweetness and life will feel fresh and new with him and soon the other guy will be forgotten. Just know that going back in time and trying to recapture what you think you lost is never a good option. My husband now did that before I met him (and the girl was a loser back when he dated her in high school but he had cared deeply for her) he went through a horrible marriage, got really drunk right after his divorce and met up with that high school girl and she had gotten worse than way back then, the worst thing is, she got pregnant and he has DEEP regrets of ever going back. She plays a ton of games and he has to pay a ton of money because she is a welfare HO. She had even told him right after he "got together" with her that she was still married but on her way to a divorce (she had told him she WAS divorced), then she told him she liked to be involved in orgies and he MIGHT be the father of the kid OR 3 or 4 others might be...this was all after the drunken night. Anyway, sorry to give you that detailed of a history, but the past is better LEFT in the PAST!