Well, bad skin along with lack of affection + attention, weird family, ugly nose + other features and the like. I did a bit well in school and in other things which me made a bit confident sometimes.
I guess this resulted in me having fluctuating sense of confidence? I'm either arrogant or terribly insecure. I want to find a balance.
Hm. I'd definitely got o the derma but dermas can be expensive. I need to work first. But yeah... it's a harsh world. I can't stop comparing myself. When I'm casually dating someone, I would endlessly compare myself to his female friends, exes, even classmates and family!!! I fear that they will meet someone more beautiful, smarter and more interesting plus with softer and nicer skin. I will get paranoid, insecure and obsessive. I will become clingy. He will get suffocated. I will demand more. He withdraws more. Then he'll drop me like a hot potato.
Yeah that's the pattern of my relationships and even some of my friendships with other females.
*sigh* I dunno what to do...
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