Sally, I'm sorry to have not seen you before but I'm a rather new member. Please share with us what makes you feel so much hate for yourself. Often times we're our own worst critic and many people around see so much good. It can't be all bad dear.
Believe in it or not but we (Buddhists) believe having a human birth is one of the best ones you can achieve and that all life is precious and deserving of love and compassion.
Please let us know so we can if not help, at least make our best attempt to.