I think because you witnessed the way he treated his own Mother, it gave you clarity as to how he will one day treat you, coupled with the nigly things that you don't like about him and can't handle.
It's like a wake up call and as such, you question your depth of love. You, more than likely have an attachment, we all do, having gone out with someone for so long but love, you've realised doesn't exist in the way that you know it should.
However, having said that, making up doesn't necessarily have all those tingly effects as they did when you first met. But, there should be an instant gratitude and feeling of relieve and love. You didn't feel that, rather you felt "mistake".
Use your going away at the end of the year as your excuse. Tell him that you don't think it's fair and as you had broken up, you should have left it that way. It's time has run out and it's time for him to move on. Whereas, you just want to concentrate on education and career.
Whether he accepts that as a reason is not your problem. You don't have to give one but it's nice to do so.
He will continue to harrass to get you back and all you can do is say, sorry, I'm standing my ground...
The only way you can have him never speak to you again is cheating and no way should you even consider that.
People get hurt.
There's nothing you can do about it.
If need be as someone above said, change your number.
It's your life and you have to live it the way you choose, we only have one.
CW
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Women are Angels
And when someone breaks our wings....
We simply continue to fly.........on a broomstick...
We are flexible like that ....
White Witch.
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