I took out the names that were posted due to the prudent counsel given. I'm embarrassed that I did that now, I'm sorry. I hope I took it off soon enough as to not hurt anyone. I think I do have some anger going on. I wish I didn't. When I try to find my way out of this mess that I feel it seems to stir things back up. I some how think that stirring it up gets it out of you and allows you to assess what you're feeling, but I sometimes worry that maybe it can drag the process on and on.
I've had so many unanswered questions that just persist. I've asked her, done hundreds of dollars of therapy and she tells me "I don't know why I did it, I'm not sure etc."
Most perplexing to me is usually when I pray about things I usually feel very solid about what to do and it's reassuring. With this in the middle of praying about it I began sobbing deeply and was inspired to pray for patience. Patience. What do you do? I know God loves all his children and wants what's best. In hindsight I see that I've grown tremendously as I've been patient. What else do I need to learn from this experience before I can be at peace? That is what I want to know.