Kaylar, I hate hearing what you have to say, but I know I need to hear what you're saying. You remind me of Dr. Laura on the radio. All through growing up I've been afraid of divorce. Especially because of what it can do to children (my friends growing up). When we married she "repented" of everything in her past and I forgave her 70X7. It was hard and took time. Especially hard was sex advice from her in the bedroom. I forced myself mentally to deal with it and with time healed from it. Needless to say that's come undone now. I'm still afraid of what's in store for my daughter. One lawyer was someone I lived next to growing up whose wife cheated on him five years passed and she did it again. She was a stewardess and he of course a lawyer. He advised me to try to work it out with her. That made no sense to me! He'd been there, it failed and he was recomending I make the same mistake he had made. His sons 1st wife cheated on him and he divorced her. His 2nd wife cheated on him after the 1st month and the separated for a month and got back together and have been together since. I talked to this lawyers son who's a friend of mine and he still struggles, but seems kinda OK and happy. This with my answer from a prayer to be patient, and the concern for my two year old daughter keeps me married for now. I know if five years from now she cheat again it will be harder on my daughter and maybe more kids, but I have to wonder. What if she could change? What if we could work it out some how? I feel like I'm "lack of judgment" for even saying that, but I also worry about hurting the feelings of my next spouse with this whole past thing and damage I have from it.