I get so excited to hear from you! Some of it is because I lack the real world experience and perspective that you have. I know it's best to have clear set goals and objectives when you're into something emotional and difficult. I have a lot of support all around me, but what ever I say goes to them. If I'm in-they're in there right behind me in sticking it out. If I say it's over- they're all right there behind me in ending it. I've been unclear and all over the place with this and that is NOT like me in any other aspect of my life. This is hard for me. I really appreciate your advice. I feel like a sponge. I've seen other people like this almost like they enjoy the attention. I've thought it was weak or bad. I have felt weak and hurt. It's not a good place to make a big decision from. Having someone to share much needed wisdom with me is a God send! Bless You! I've had a lot of advise. Mostly just opinions with out reasons or just people who said what I wanted to hear because they love me and don't know what else to say. I just really appreciate any advise that comes from the heart and from experience. You obviously have both. I will continue to check up- even if you don't hear from me everyday feel free to ask questions or share anything you may be prompted to. Thanks again.