I don't make decisions quickly. I don't buy things quickly I sleep on it. I think I'm cautious. This is a huge decision to make. I've made up a rough draft of what I'm going to do. I'm OK with clicking my heels. I am very scared. I've been very scared to do many things that I have gone ahead and done. One thing I'm known for is finishing what I start. Once I commit to something I do it. Completely. Therefore I want to make sure I do this thing right. In my opinion who I marry is one of the most important things I do in this life. I believe in eternal marriage. It's huge to me. I've upheld my end of the vows completely. She hasn't. That marriage is currently void other than legal.
As for why or what mistake I made in marrying her it was all those things and a huge dose of confidence in my own ability to rehabilitate and take up slack in a relationship. I have a self esteem based on my actions, my skills, my values, etc. She's home