I know, asking for money is the worst part of it! I have been cleaning the firehouse once a week for $200 a month. Its not much but it is something. This year was the first year that I could buy him a christmas present with out using his money! I am sorry you feel like this, but its nice to know that I am not the only one! Some people stay home with their children and love it! I guess some people don't! Not saying that you don't love your kids. Just that stay-at-home mom doesn't work for everybody. And daycare has never been an option to me. First, it cost a lot of money. Second, your kid always ends up sick. Its to me. I hope that things get better for you. Maybe start doing some group activities at a community center of something. That was a really good idea!