When I was 13 I was diagnosed with depression. They put me on prozac hoping I would have less emotional PMS and start eating since I was anorexic. I have since been on the medication and am definately no longer anorexic. I have actually doubled my weight. I sometimes wonder what my life would be like with out the drug since it has been more than half my life that I have been on it. I have tried a few other meds and so far prozac is the one that works the best. I am border line ADD and it seems to help me focus. I have had a hard time coming to terms with the fact that I am dependent on this medication. I find when I try to come off I get horrible headaches and am very emotional. I definately need an antidepressent as it is clear that I have a chemical imbalance. How do I know that the way I am now is the way I should be? Does this make sense. What if all this time the person that I have been is really not the person I should be. I am finally at a point in my life that I can say that I am a loving, warm hearted caring person. I can not however look in the mirror and say, "wow, I'm beautiful". I have lost all confidence in myself since (it seems) since I started taking the med. Call it coincidence but I don't know what else to think. I strongly believe in balance and feel that my life is not properly balanced because I don't love myself. I feel that I won't find my future husband because I will never be able to accept love if I don't love myself. Is it the meds or something deep rooted? I have been brought up with a close knit family who is still loving and supporting to this day. What is wrong with me?