yesterday first he tought i was not being serious, even i wasn't sure what was gonna happen the next day, but we had a fight the night before (while he was drunk) and i didn't like the way he treated me i'm leaving him because of that combined with the fact that he is married but, i think the main reason i'm leaving him, is because the way he treated me, i still don't know how things are gonna turn out but i'm trying to take it as easy as possible, i don't want another married man i want a man only for me but when i think about it, it seems imposible, and this is weird but as soon as i think of getting involved with a single guy, i get thoughts of the way my "BREAST LOOK"(i find it unatracctive & i've thoughts of me tearing off the skin of my areola) this for some reason doesn't happen with a married man in the picture
i have no energy to keep going!, and for several years at list once a week i have suicidal thoughts, i think the reason i haven't done it it's because i haven't find a painless way to do it (this was after and before this guy), but at times i am the most positive person of the world