Honey: Why do you need a man. Be happy with life. Stop searching and just live every day for the beauty it holds. Stop punishing yourself with finding all the things you aren't and look at all the wonderful things that you are. NO MAN is worth that but you are.

Society messes with the minds of us women as we grow up. Sometimes our Mother's on impress us on having to find a man. You know all women have to marry. I use to get that bit. I used to look for just about any Tom, Di*k or Harry when I was young to marry. Thankfully, I was young at that time and had a chance to grow but what is it about a man that has to make you whole. A woman friend can be the dearest thing and most truthful plus loyal. Sure there is some man out there for you someday but wait and stop looking. Just smell the roses of life and honey stop rushing age.

Your body is beautiful. Where you see a flaw the man that you love will not. We all have flaws. Even after all these years my husband still finds me beautiful which is a joke in itself. But sweetie he sees past me and sees something inside of me that he loves just as someone will find this in you.

Don't ever think of taking your own life....You are so young and so giving now get away from this man. He is bad for you and you know this.. I wish I could find the words that could put confidence in you....Honey, find peace......Go to a church or get some help.....If I was there I would talk to you but this is as good as I can do.....Life is not easy but you are more special than you are giving yourself credit for....Peace and love to you...Caroline