I saw your posting and really feel for you. I'm so sorry you lost your boys. I don't see how that's possible from post pardom, you were sick. Are you getting the help you need from therapy, shrink, etc? Just to share my story. I had a difficult pregnancy. About three weeks after I gave birth the suicidal thoughts began. I remember taking my daughter in to a psychiatrist crying and telling her all I thought of was killing myself. She put me on antidepressents, which I didn't realize made me worse because I guess I have post pardom induced bipolar. During the past five months I would withdrawal and party with my friends. Some times I would not come home. It was bad. Then when she was five
months I had a nervous breakdown and tried to kill mysef. I really put efforrt into doing it by swollowing 50 flexeral. I actually died twice in the ambulalance. It's weird though, I feel like I've been given a second chane, and I thank God everyday that I'm here,

Considering all of this, my husband almost left me an threatened to take my daughter away. But things sorta worked out and I'm on a great medication that helps me.

But if you feel you need to talk, I would like that.

Thanks,

Rebecca T