First i'll start by saying i'm new here,,hello all. Second I'll start by saying I was kinda scared about posting my problem here because before I joined I read alot of posts here and my issue is one that it seems "has been done to death around here". Yes I am involved with a married man...or should I say was. I have been with him for 3 years and it is a long distance relationship. He is in Canada and I am in the states. Anyway there have been many, many problems through out our time together. The final thing was in December after he came to visit me for Christmas I found out he was not only cheating on his wife with me, but he was also cheating on both of us with another woman. We broke up after I found this out. We have still been in contact and have fought, screamed, cried over all of it. He wants to be friends and eventually hopes we can get back to what we had. Of course part of me still wants him because of the time I have spent with him. Yes i've heard it all from him, the wife is this and that, his marriage is awful, he won't leave til his kids are outta school. And yes I know he isn't ever gonna leave. He tells me i'm his soul mate, that if i leave him for good he couldn't and can't function without me. I know its all bull cause he once again showed his true colors this past Sunday by cussing and screaming at me. MY ISSUE is I know I have to go, I am even seeing a therapist to help me with this. But everytime he contacts me I let him back in only to get hurt again and again. My therapist says he is very manipulative and he seeks out women like me, cause this isnt his first go around, if you know what I mean. I can be so strong until I hear from him then I cave. And he starts all his crying again, then my heart breaks for him. If I went thru everything that has happened I could type for days, lol. And of course his classic is everything is always my fault. ANYWAY I know I have to get away from him I just can't seem to find that inner strength I know I have to do get away from him once and for all. I even know that I don't feel the same way for him that I once did but its like he still has this hold over me that I can't seem to break off FOR GOOD. Any feed back will be nice to hear.

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