Well, I am not a mother...so maybe the motherhood forum wasn't the best place to post this. Oh well. I will simply cut to the chase here. I am almost 28, have been with my husband for 6 years. I love him with all my heart, I can't imagine my life without him. He happens to have an ex-wife and two children. He pays a lot in child support. Now...don't get me wrong, I am not complaining about that. It is completely his duty to pay the child support and I was fully aware of his situation before I said "yes" to marrying him. Moving on to my point....we are a typical middle class couple. We don't have much and we live paycheck to paycheck, but we seem to be getting by on what little we do have. I am happy in my marriage. However, I am severely depressed because I so badly want to have a baby. I would also like to buy a house. I am not so much worried about buying a house anymore, but the craving to have a baby cunsumes my every thought. There is no way at all a baby could fit into our tight budget right now. I have sat down and done the math on paper numerous times. There is simply no room for a baby. My husband and I both have decent paying jobs I suppose. I have looked into going to school for a degree to land myself a better paying job. But...I would have to attend part time at night since I would not be able to quit my job for school. At that rate, it would take me years to earn a degree and then I would just have to pay back student loans so I wouldn't be any better off than I am now. My husband knows how I am feeling, but I don't really like to talk about it much to him because he feels guilty and thinks that he can't make me happy. I can't seem to make him understand that isn't true. He will say things like "maybe you should find someone else that can give you what you want". I tell him over and over again I don't want those things with anyone else, I want those things with him. I am just so frustrated. I know I am still young, but I also don't want to become a first time mother at age 35+. I don't know how to deal with this. I cry while I am at work, I cry when I am cooking dinner, I cry in bed, I just cry all the time. I have no one I can really talk to about it. I feel so hopeless. I don't know what to do. Is there anyone that is going through something similar? If so, how do you cope?