Today was a pretty good day for me and how I'm feeling. It's been 8 days since i've talked to him....that is HUGE for me. We've never gone this long without any kind of communication. I just wish I didn't think of him so much. I hope that goes away too. I mean I know i'll always think of him just hopefully not so much in the future. And that each day is going to get easier for me.

I want to get past these feelings of missing him so much . There are times when its not necessarily so much of missing him, but then there are times when I miss him so much I hurt. I know this is all normal.
Wow I sound kind of contradictory there.

I keep telling myself how bad this relationship is/was. Many many reasons to stay away. All on the list. Just have to get past these missing him feelings. I miss a certain side of him that I don't think many others got to see of him. We could talk at time so well and have an awesome time together and thats the part I miss....

Oh well I know I have to let go, totally. One day at a time.