I do tend to agree with Kaylar i think you need to stop thinking about him and move on.

I recall your other Threads and in those, you said you pushed for marriage, then backed of when he said it was too early and he wasn't ready.

And, that you were a "pushy" person, basically with him always questioning, why?

You have to go with the flow with relationships, not worry about yesterday, or tomorrow but only NOW....

Enjoy the special feeling of it and just go with the flow.

In other words don't push against the current, just flow down the river.

We sometimes get a bit insecure, regardless of age, and start questioning. But if we continuing questioning, we show that in-security and partners like to feel secure in a relationship, not be constantly questioned how they feel about the other person, it can kind of scare them of.

Be confident, walk tall and don't question just live for the moment and see where it takes you, it's a journey.