Hey Just4me,
I kept going back to your thread hoping someone else posted, so i could say hey, how you doing, but alas, without double posting, i couldn't.
There is an old saying: -
"If you love someone set them free, if they come back to you they're yours if the don't they never were".
If you maybe concentrate on the above saying, and lock it away in your heart then you allow hope of that man leaving everyone and truly being yours, although the trust will be a hard thing but it may give you some form of satisfaction.
You also reallllllly need to ditch that phone number you know.
It would be natural that he is missing you as a person but remember that list that you wrote that your therapist asked you to do and to read that every day. The "missing" is pertained to missing if you understand...
You can't go on a merry go round, if you don't ditch that phone, he will call again in a few days, now that he has broken through and then the day after, and then he'll be on your doorstep.
I don't know if i am right or wrong, but if you take another call cause you can't ditch that phone number
, maybe your closure will be to tell him exactly what you feel for him, so he knows and you can blurt it all out once and for all. But then follow through with, so i'm going now because i am not a porn on your Chest Board, but if you ever want to consider being with just me, i'll see you on my doorstep one day, if i am not taken already, with your suitcases, other wise frankly, i can feel this gain for someone else and that's what i intend to do.
I really feel for you as i know you are of strong nature and character and regardless this is difficult for you.
But both the above are worth a shot i think.
Take care okay.
CW
PS: Keep those positive thoughts going as you know you can.....