Every situation is different..... l can understand how relationships fall apart.... cheating... feeling attracted to another person... however... l seriously am soooo dead against it... we all have a mind... we all know the diff from right and wrong.... lots of pllz mess about... some get caught out.....the guilty party then realizes ... the grass isn t always greener on the other side... l ve dabbled and now l know l want to be with the woman.. man.. l originally was with.. pppfffttt... hun .. seriously it takes a very strong person to cope and deal with all the emotions you are going through... the old saying.... once the trust has gone... well you are living it... doesn t always maen that the guilty party will cheat again... just means the victim.. and thats you... will forever wonder... all the things you mentioned you will always go through... will keep popping back into your head... consider councelling.... both of you.. if he s willing... l wish you well