I've read your other posts and refrained from answering because it seems that you already know what you must do but you are in so much pain...Just something to think about: Won't checking into his marital situation just keep you tied to this man and add more stress on top of what you're already dealing with? I don't think knowing what he's doing will give you closure. He's made a choice and to obsess over him and his life and 'tokens' will only keep you stuck in pain. You have to fight to let all of this go.