I do carry anti-bacterial gel and stuff with me at all times, it doesn't make me feel any better when I use it though. My boyfriend doesn't know to what extent that I have a problem with this, because I'm too scared to tell him. I don't want to bring it up because I don't want him to think I'm putting him, or his family, down. I know he wouldn't be mad and he would be really understanding but I just would feel to guilty like I was hurting his feelings. I just don't know how to bring it up. We are moving out together in August, and I've already told him that I want our apartment to be very clean. He knows that I am a clean freak but he doesn't know that being at his parents house really bothers me.