Its been a while since I have posted something on here. Life has been a crazy mess for the past few months. In the beginning of February I left my husband. There were so many reasons and at the time it seemed like a separation would be the best thing for both of us. I moved back to my hometown and started living with my dad. I really thought that he would call someday and ask me to come home. He never did. After a couple months I met somebody who made me feel good again. He took me out on dates, opens doors for me. We have had a lot of fun together. I decided to move back to the town I left behind because the separation from my daughter was way to much to handle. Since I have been back here, Im starting to miss my ex. We see each other every day. We laugh and joke like old times. I think that the reasons that we had problems was because of the way i felt about myself. I have been with him since i was 17. I've never worked or paid any bills by myself. I didn't know who I was without him and I knew that i needed to find that out. When I talk to him about getting back together he says that I hurt him too much by leaving and that things would never be the same because i started seeing someone else. But he wants me to stay the night and make dinner, everything that makes my head get all twisted up. We have been sleeping together since a week before I moved back. When I am with him I really feel like things could work out. But he is so emotionally closed off to me, I can't tell where he stands. When we had a few drinks the other night I asked him if we were ever going to get through this and he said he doesn't know. Should I keep waiting around for him to decide what he wants? I don't want to hurt this new guy. He is really sweet to me and tells me how he feels about me all the time. I don't love him though. I don't know if things will ever go back to normal with me and my ex though. Im so confused. I;ve even talked to the new guy about this and he tells me that whatever I decide to do he will always be there for me. He understands why I am confused.