This is not good for my health. I am only 23 and I feel like I could do better jumping off a cliff!!

I live in the WORST place possible, right in the most dangerous part of my city "The hood or Ghetto". But we can't afford a cheaper place anywhere else in the city. There are already 4 of us living in a 2 bedroom house (Me, Brent, my mom and her BF) and together our income STILL isn't enough.

I Can't seem to hold onto a job. My emotions get in the way too much and I end up over stressing myself. I do have a "self employment" job where I clean houses for pay...but it's not anywhere CLOSE enough. I used to be able to handle stress like a pro, but recently, with my "best friend" turning on me and so many things just adding up...I break down ALOT!!

I mean My fiance WAS supposed to build a fence around our property to keep these kids and druggies OUT, but he always has an excuse not to! Like today, I witnessed like 5 older kids walking through our back yard like they owned the place!!! And last year, in October we had a doped up meth guy near kick our FRONT DOOR down!! We didn't even know the freak!! Just some random druggie having a freak out attack!! TO top it off he smashed our windshield in which cost us $400 to replace...$400 of rent money!!

So now i'm fearing for my safety and sanity!!
I don't know what to do. Brent just has this "what do you want me to do about it?" attitude, but he still tries to comfort me and stuff, but I get this feeling of hopelessness.... My mom is a party freak, drinks and does drugs...ugh, NOT someone I look up to

I need a break...i'll come back after....i'm just venting BTW. I need a drink...