grr. Where to begin. I am in a constant state of headache. Like I know there are a million reasons for this. I mean I'm not exactly the healthest person in the world; I'm surprised I'm such good shape, compared to what I do. I know like not sleeping and drinking is bad, but I've always done that and I know fast food is bad for you and I've always done that too.

The other day someone pretty much called me fat and I really needed to hear it because god yall that won't.

Nobody's gets this I suppose.

But I don't know.

I'm known I might be thought of as a ditzy blonde but god, this morning I went and proved it. Yep so I went to school and hour early. Nice right, I'm a ing ???? Who does that?

· So I hate my job AGAIN. It ing sucks. The other day I hang up on my manager!

· My school is a joke, like I don't know how I have A's like I don't do there. I there for attendence reasons, we don't learn, when I skip we don't have make-up work, but I'm just getting this cycle where I don't want to go, and I skip and I never want to go.

· And my job is just depressing, it's not like the work, I don't mind working I just think it's getting old, ha how long have a said that. Nah but I really might put in an application at Ruby Tuesday with my friend. I hope that works out.

I need to good drink. I don't really drink that much anymore, maybe I'm going through withdraws ha-ha, I know I'll feel good and my headaches will go away if I drink some, not that I can't handle it like I once could that's weird too.

I'm so lazy and unmotivated, I have no desire to do anything but lay in my bed all day and I wouldn't care. I never want to go to school and when I do. Ha I look like bum not that I care, but I just noticed like I never I don't know "get dress" like its always sweatshirt and jeans. Err I'm ugly and fat, I'm fugly, only f meaning fat…ahh I make myself laugh.

So it takes 30 days to make or break a habit, and I'm trying to break one….not getting too far on that. I'm quit when I go to the gym, that's what I've been saying