well, if i thought that it was as bad as it could get, i was wrong. my husband and i did get back together, and for 2 weeks it was nothing short of amazing. life was getting back to the way it should be. I explained things to my boyfriend and he really did understand. We stayed friends. Last week I found out that i was pregnant. It just so happened to be the week that i broke up with my boyfriend and went back to my husband. This is the only time in my life where it could be either way. So, I thought that the best thing to do would be to be honest with both of them. I called the ex-boyfriend first. He seemed pretty shocked but said that he would stand behind me no matter what i choose to do. but that night when i told my husband he wasn't so understanding. He told me that he wants nothing to do with me anymore. That I can figure this out on my own since I got into by myself. I tried to explain to him that it really could be either way and he said bull . I have decided not to keep the baby. Not that I don't want to but I have been going through a lot of the past few months and having a baby right now seems out of the question. Plus I don't want to have another relationship based on a baby. My ex understands that and has let me come stay with him while we wait for the appt and to take care of me afterward. He has been so amazing about this whole thing and it makes me wonder why in the did I leave him? I want my life with my husband back. We have been so happy for the past 4 years and I don't know why i left him 4 months ago, I just knew that I needed to figure some things out. I can't believe i am pregnant right now. I don't think that it has actually sunk in. I want to have more babies, I just want to be happy about getting pregnant for once. When i got pregnant with my daughter i was only 17 and i was scared out of my mind. I love her with all my heart but a part of me has some kind of resentment towards her. I know that i am the one who got pregnant but when i had her, my whole life changed. and i have been trying to figure out who i am ever since. I don't want to bring another baby into the situation and not be totally ready.