I just read your other post from some time ago....

In that post you said you "wanted to run away from it all".

Seems like that's exactly what you did in the end...

What did you escape from? The fact you were 17, into drugs in a big way, got pregnant whilst still on drugs, kicked the drugs, he kicked the "dealer" job and you tried for a "normal marriage" but yet, still you needed to escape and you did.

Then someone "sweet, caring, different" entered the picture, you kind of liked that, went for it. Then left it for familiarity? Went back to your husband, then bamn, pregnant, got told to leave, so went back to the "sweet caring different man?

What you need, is to clear yourself from BOTH....

You don't know who you are anymore as you haven't found you yet, your just scratching at the suffice and sorry, the sweet man is a rebound and your using him...

Get yourself together, move in with your family, find you, then and only then can you decide what YOU want and work towards seeing if it is attainable...

At the moment your drifting from one to the other and back again, all the while avoiding responsibilities and you'll confuse your little girl even more as well, as obviously she lives with your husband at this stage.

You love her to death, even more than yourself, yet you resent her...

You also possibly need to go and speak to someone about this, as it is all going around in circles in your head, there is no clarity.

Just my opinion.... You need to find you and be in a happy place with who you are now...

CW