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Originally Posted by HickBarbie
grr. Where to begin. I am in a constant state of headache. Like I know there are a million reasons for this. I mean I'm not exactly the healthest person in the world; I'm surprised I'm such good shape, compared to what I do. I know like not sleeping and drinking is bad, but I've always done that and I know fast food is bad for you and I've always done that too.
The other day someone pretty much called me fat and I really needed to hear it because god yall that won't.
Nobody's gets this I suppose.
But I don't know.
I'm known I might be thought of as a ditzy blonde but god, this morning I went and proved it. Yep so I went to school and hour early. Nice right, I'm a ing ???? Who does that?
· So I hate my job AGAIN. It ing sucks. The other day I hang up on my manager!
· My school is a joke, like I don't know how I have A's like I don't do there. I there for attendence reasons, we don't learn, when I skip we don't have make-up work, but I'm just getting this cycle where I don't want to go, and I skip and I never want to go.
· And my job is just depressing, it's not like the work, I don't mind working I just think it's getting old, ha how long have a said that. Nah but I really might put in an application at Ruby Tuesday with my friend. I hope that works out.
I need to good drink. I don't really drink that much anymore, maybe I'm going through withdraws ha-ha, I know I'll feel good and my headaches will go away if I drink some, not that I can't handle it like I once could that's weird too.
I'm so lazy and unmotivated, I have no desire to do anything but lay in my bed all day and I wouldn't care. I never want to go to school and when I do. Ha I look like bum not that I care, but I just noticed like I never I don't know "get dress" like its always sweatshirt and jeans. Err I'm ugly and fat, I'm fugly, only f meaning fat…ahh I make myself laugh.
So it takes 30 days to make or break a habit, and I'm trying to break one….not getting too far on that. I'm quit when I go to the gym, that's what I've been saying
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Dear me?
I'm fat, i'm ugly, i don't care what i look like, i hate school, hate my job, let's have another drink...
Okay, i can do this, perhaps when i start the gym, then i can start my 30 days withdrawl.
I eat rubbish, and once a day, have to drink before sleeping, got to clear that headache...
Um.... WAKE UP call... Your depressed, down and out, for no reason other than yourself...
The hardest thing to do is break a habit... You have a few.
The second hardest thing is to look in the mirror and say i am all that actually, and see yourself in swimwear that looks hot...
Do it.
All of it.
Write down some goals and work towards one at a time, first one, kick the alcohol, that gives you a headache, puts on weight, clouds your mind and keeps you un-motivated.
Go from there
CW