About 3 weeks ago my husband said he was leaving and he did. We have 2 kids 8 & 9 and I am due next month with our 3rd daughter. After 2 years of him being downstairs in the basement playing this online game. He gets mad and he began to say some of the most awful things that I have heard from him. We have been together for almost 14 years. I am so crushed and at least right now I have learned how to breathe again. I still talk to him everyday and we have been in this honeymoon breakup phase. If there is a such thing as that.
Since he has been gone he hasn't been acting like himself at all. He moved back home to his moms and has regressed to a kid again. He is drunk and high most weekends. He was going to move back home when the baby is due because I have to get a C-section. Today he told me to find someone else to help you because I really don't want to. I will pay someone rather than take off of work. Even with all that he has been saying over the last couple of months I can't stop loving him.
I feel like a dog waiting to be patted on the head and when he leaves my tail goes between my legs. I feel so pathetic and I am so much better than this. I am just having the hardest time letting go and moving on. Any advice would be so appreciated. I am sick of starring into space and remembering all of the good times.