Hi Jacun.. I actually read your thread when you were on line some hours ago.

There's not a lot to go on... You are remembering all the good times, something happened that made him go down to the basement for 2 years and your pregnant, soon expecting which is a horrid thing to go on your own over, i'm so sorry.

It's such a stressful time for you now...

There must be a reason why he has gone to drink and drugs? But, yet he states he needs to work?

Do you know why he walked away from you mentally for a while, and why he can't seem to be near you for the birth of your child together... why he feels this way.

Would it be okay to say, concentrate on the birth of your beautiful little one for now, as you and the baby are the most important at this time, with little stress..?

Maybe just sharing with us for a few weeks, how you feel, then ask for responses...

I'm just feeling that this is a traumatic time and as such, you need people surrounding you at the moment and ask why later.

I hope what i said is ok.

Do you have a close family and friends, they are whom you need to be with at the moment with plenty of hugs for now.

But, if you want to share more, for answers that's your choice...

I just can't paint a picture in my head as to why? As there really is not anything to go on to help you.

I will say, take care and look after yourself and your children at the moment regarless as you are all priority and important...

CW