I didn't intend on sounding threatning. I am just at one of those breaking points I guess. I feel my pain I feel his pain I feel the kids pain. There is something going on and I am lost. I am going to talk to a therapist and he has agreed to go as long as it is for the family. I hope someone else can see what I can. Or someone can tell me that I am the crazy one. Either way it will be nice to hear something. A lot of people keep telling me to have patience. An area where I need a lot of work. I want things better and I want it now. Pretty high expectation on something that happened not that long ago.
You are right he does have some sort of yearly recurring event and this year has been the worst yet. And since he has left there isn't anyone to reign him in for lack of better words. I am concerned for his well being. but at the same time I am trying really hard to not continue with my old habits and let him fall. Hopefully the fall is what is needed. If not I don't know. I am really taking this one day at a time and on those days its every minute as it comes. I could have sworn someone told me life was easy Guess not.
I really appreciate all of the advise that I have been receiving. So please don't stop. It is much needed.