Hello dear.

I agree with the first advice giver, and also the agreer. Stop having sex with this man. Thats the first thing you absolutely have to do in this situation.

I am also about to move away from my family for the first time with the love of my life so I can understand at least a part of your journey. I can tell you that your not crazy and that its not your fault that it didnt work out. I know that you hadnt said that you thought it was, but for some reason, women are much more able to take responsibility rather than men which always makes women assume everything is their fault.

The next thing you need to do is get out of that house/ apartment. In the ideal situation I would say move back home, but I also dont know the whole scenario enough to say that for sure. Make sure you do whats best for you. I would take some quiet time just to yourself and ask "what would make me happy?". Dont even say these things out loud if you dont want, but make sure you answer them honestly. Dont think about anyone else, especially not your ex. If he's not in it for the long haul (which hes clearly not) then you need to get your pretty little self out of that situation. Its doing nothing but screw with your mind and your perception of the situation.

By the way, snooping is common. We do it when we feel out of control of a situation. It sucks and makes us feel guilty but it happens sometimes. Don't be ashamed of it, but try not to do it either. Its not healthy and you might not like what you find.

Stay strong and stay away from that guy!! Make sure you establish a support system if you stay where you are. Go out! Meet women your age! Try to have some fun.

The best of luck to you my dear.