One year on hey....

There is a very big part of you that really needs to be wanted and loved, i guess you have found solace in dancing to at least receive a touch of flirtation that makes you feel special.

I imagine your daughter to, provides love to you and you to her.

What concerns me is the constant living of "toad" and his wife, it is like it is yesterday, so fresh in your mind.. Your so consumed by it.. I'm hoping, that now that you have made that telephone call to her, that you can now, heal there and "let that go", you have to... for your own health and well being.

You are taking great steps to be happy within yourself and find you, gym, dancing things you love.

At some point, I'm betting that you will let go of the other side of the non-existent life you are leaving and move forward in that direction as well.

You are staying because of your daughter, but you will always have rights, as Kaylar mentioned 12 months ago and you will see this at some point and be able to move on.

Your wife is in my opinion, simply a spoilt brat. You have done everything out of your power in your marriage to give her the best that you can and all that she wants, yet, she chose to want more, and more 12 months ago, she thought she could have this man, his extra wealth that he had, but was wrong.

She will more than likely latch onto someone else at some point, for more as she is greedy, she is a "princess".

I hope you are not giving her "everything" any more, and i hope you have a separate little bank account that you are contributing to weekly for future, as you will need it.

When she ventures like a stray cat later yet again, this will be the grounds that you will have to 1) move on 2) be loved by someone properly and 3) have your daughter in your life, as you will have more grounds in which to argue.

Like everyone said in 2007, get, go but you won't.

So no point, telling the same old, you didn't do it then you won't do it now.

Instead, i am just going to say, put some money aside, watch very carefully with your eyes.

Don't let it consume you don't start checking, that's not what i am saying, just keep the thought in the back of your head, which you probably do anyway and be open to the knowledge you already have.

For future problems that i am sure will occur, as she can't help herself...

And, continue doing all the things you are learning and enjoying about yourself and making yourself happy.

CW