Yesterday he came over. We all had a good time laughing and we went for some Krispy Kremes. I though that today would be the same being the 4th and all. He was in a pissy mood as soon as he walked through the door. While we waited for the fireworks I started laughing about an inside joke that I have. It's about his out of state "friend". Any way I couldn't hold it in because there were these people in front of us that was the picture of how I imagine her. He got livid that I wouldn't tell him the joke. He was like you did this a few weeks ago. You need to tell me what is F'n funny. He asked if I was laughing at his expense and I told him I wouldn't do that. I'm not rude that way. He spent the next few hours in that sour mood. And the more fun I had with the girls the more aggitated he got. I was not going to let him ruin my day, so we enjoyed it even with his grumpy face around. I started thinking next year is going to be so much better. which made me smile more and he frowned more.
He really didn't even hang out with the girls, he just had his presence there. Not to complain b/c at least he's trying. This is the first time I have seen him that he hasn't been on some substance. I think he was withdrawing and just grumpy and trying his hardest to intimidate me. I'm glad that I have passed some stages because this would have broken me even a week ago. He's losing control over a lot of things and I think he is becoming aware of it all.
To top it all his last ditch effort: I was having bad contractions. Sitting for hours is not tolerable right now. I didn't want to be alone but he said you'll be ok. Call me if you need me and he left. I was able to even shrug that off. He has no clue how far I have started to distance myself. His tantrums are ridiculous now. I don't have to lower myself down he can get mad, he can get mean but he can't get me to react the same way anymore.