I know in a way where you are coming from when I was 17 I started dating a married man that came into the restaurant I worked at everyday. I didnt know he was married at first. He was 30 at the time. I found out he was married when he brought me to him home. I saw the wedding pictures then I met his son a toddler then. We dated for 2 years. The last straw was when I got pregnant. I was 19 and supposed to be going away to college and I am here pregnant by a married man. How do I explain that to my parents. I told him I was pregnant and then disappeared. He didnt see me for another year when I came back home. I made the best decision I could I aborted the pregnancy and went to college. He was upset because I didnt tell him anything after I told him I was preganant. But I did what I had to do to take care of me. Thats what you have to do too.