We don't always get what we want but sometimes we get what we need. You being depressed and angry are common in both the grieving of the loss of your father and the loss of the love of your life.

What has happened to you is not fair but no one said life would be. What you can take from this is you have already lived thru the pain its who you are after this pain that counts.

You my friend have just experienced a clean break from your past whether you wanted it or not. This is a time for you to go out and do everything the way you always wanted to. All the old structures and securities are gone and its time to rebuild new.

Let go of all old habits that don't suit you well and start fresh. Remember you are an amazing person waiting to discover something wonderful inside of you. Love yourself and move on and let go.

Love yourself a lot take little steps and move forward in life ya never know this could be the best thing that has ever happened to you.

The others have stated this has tested your character and will and you are already stronger than you know. I totally agree with them.

I went thru a similar experience and one day it was devastating and seemed like the worst crisis of my life. I lost everything i had worked so hard for. i look back and i woudn't change a thing. I kept putting one foot in front of the other and some days i lost the battle but in the end i won the war.

good luck landing no worries you will