i think it would but he is a really good friend and my only firend that i have that is a male.
i know i have issues with the men but i cant even have a friend without screwing up the friendship.
i talked to my hubby he's ok cause i am honnest and he trusts me. he thinks its because of all my past experences that has me confused.
When i am with him though i can be myself and i'm not worried about what i am saying. i never had that kind of a relationship with men before. all my friends that were male before turned into something more and the everything got messed up.
i was going to tell him how i feel and how i feel as a friend but i decided that i wont.

it's ok to a fantasy lover and that is what he is to me. i know i could never do anything to hurt my husband. so thats what i have come up with after sleeping on it. does it sound bad or valid?