What to do?
i have posted a few posts on here now and would like to ask for advice.
im going to be 25 and my b/f of 3 years will be 29 this year. we both love kids i have been around babies and kids my hole life and just love them i think that babies are the most wonderful innocent gift from God and i always wanted a family 1 2 or 3 babies not a hole bunch. my b/f always told me i would make a good mom as he has seen me with kids and babies. he is good with them also as he grew up with younger sister and brother and was a babysitter for his pastors twins at one time (he even changes babies diapers okay women what guys will change the babies diapers including children that are not there own lol (i know a lot of guys who wont change there own babies)
anyway so we have talke about someday if the time is right and we are all set and are ready to include a baby or babies into our family
(after we both finish college have jobs a house/apartment.. make sure we are all set) i love babies think they can do no wrong they are perfect i never get mad and love everything about them!
but here is my delemah, there are so many babies/kids in the world that could be adopted should i adopt one instead of us having our own?
if i did could i end up fully attatched. (im sure i would)
also i have fear's im not sure if they are normal to have but a lot of time i dont want to have a babie i am afread everything or something could go wrong before they are born or while they are being delivered and afterwards what if' something happends or they get realy sick or die , hearing of SIDS or having some accident i dont think i could live with myself i had a babie and soemthing happend .
then i think what will happend when they get older .
any thoughts? or should i just wait and see what happends
i realize i over think about everthing and think about everything to much and to often.
gabby
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