I am brand new to this, so bear with me. I am almost twice your age, but went through something similiar (other than the extreme drug use), my oldest daughter is now 21 and has her own baby girl. I wouldn't trade where my life has gone and been for the world. It has always been a struggle, money, depression, all the things you describe. I am now happily married to a great guy with 2 other daugthers, ages 19 and 14. I still feel really young. Ok, enough about me....I think you should look into things for yourself, like schooling, you are very young and you have so much life ahead of you. Your daughter and husband will benefit from you making positive choices in your life. I know being home all the time seems so mundane, but it is a gift to be able to do that right now. You don't have to struggle with daycare horrors and gas and time restraints. Get out with your daughter during the day...walks and museums are a way out without spending the money. You will bond with her and when it comes time to school or a full time job, you will already have a strong bond with your daughter. I feel like I am rambling. Life goes by in a rush...trust me, I feel like it was just a few years ago that I started that "teen mom" life and now I am 39 and I feel like I still have years of living and passion in me. There are some sacrifices that are made for the decisions we make, just make sure nobody is hurt with those sacrifices and things will be everything you want (even if you aren't positive what that is)....remember those unanswered prayers can get you and your life is so much better for them. Hope that helps a little. Again, this is my first response on this...but I felt compelled.