Hi everyone,
I just registered today. I'm not sure why I didn't think of finding a forum such as this sooner, but I hope it turns on a light bulb that is very dim right now.
Physically speaking, I'm 20, 5'7", and I've been hovering in the range of 145 - 155 lbs for the last 9 or so months. I understand that this isn't "overweight" persay, but I am larger than is normal for me (low 130s).
It's been a tough year, but I hate excuses and I get so fed up with losing 5 or 6 lbs and gaining it all back again in one fell swoop. I'm a runner - I've been athletic all of my life - but I keep turning to the dark side of occassional junk food binging. NOT GOOD. Even worse - I'm a pre-medicine student who is passionate about diabetes prevention and intervention - and here I am talking the talking but not walking the walk.
I do feel it's gotten out of control...or at least, when the desire to go on a junk food fest (putting it lightly), I cannot control my consumption. I can go for 2 or 3 weeks without over indulgence (I love fruits and vegetables, and know what I should be eating), but once my level of stress increases to the point where my normal routine doesn't passify the negativity (exercising, eating healthily, sleeping 7 to 8 hours regularly) I completely lose control. Before I'm about to buy my junk of choice(s), I tell myself that I'm going to feel lousy and guilty and this is NOT a healthy choice, but this normally doesn't stop me. And once I start the binge, I can't stop until the food is completely consumed and out of sight.
I'm not sure what to do. I know what I should be doing, and normally I do a pretty good job at maintaining a healthy lifestyle. But it's gotten bad enough that when I do get out of control I get secretive about it, and it's preventing me from feeling and looking how I perceive my healthy body to be.
Any similar experiences or words of wisdom would be great.
