i feel like i hurt people by being negative and i tend to have a short fuse. i get angry about stupid stuff. and sometimes i just can't control it and i take it out on him. i don't mean to. it just comes out. i would get angry and have a panic attack about stupid stuff. i know after i have the attack that it was stupid. i also can't let things go. i feel like i have this obligation to do everything right or else people will be mad at me. i guess that's coming from how i was raised.
i guess an easier way to put it is that i put him through an emotional roller coaster.(that's what one of my ex's said to me) like i said i didn't know i needed help this bad until i moved out.
thanks for listening folks. this is really helping me
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