jessy ~ I know how youre feeling. I shifted between anorexia and bulemia for 10 years and still struggle with it. I dont believe it is something you can ever COMPLETELY recover from, but I do believe you can be healthy. It is a matter of putting the effort into losing weight. I believe the reason for my eating disorders was because I was flat out too lazy to stick to a routine. It is much easier to stop eating because you see the results IMMEDIATELY. However, the long term effects arent worth it. (My hair was falling out in clumps, ive noticed a greater increase of body hair, my molars are completely falling apart and I've had to get caps on them... and im only 23). Find a lifestyle change (not diet) you can stick to. Crash dieting/anorexia/bulemia will allow you to see those results but (as youve noticed) its not going to stay off for an extended period of time.
I know it is easier said than done, (as I said - I still have difficulty with it) but try your best to be healthy. If you feel you need to do a fast for a day or two to get you jumpstarted, i do completely understand. but dont make a habit out of not eating
