I know that this is the obvious, but have you ever really gotten over what happened to you? This can play a part of in-securities, clinginess, wanting so much to be loved that you give your all, including bj's, as you mention, but your in-securities stand out and they are young guys..
It seems they like you have feelings for you but can't cope with you needing them.
You know we all have pasts that we don't like, I almost died through drowning, I was almost raped at 14 fortunately not, and then I was almost abducted at 17 and put to work in a brothel if it wasn't for my strength against the 6ft guy that tried to push me into his car after dragging me out a nightclub as I exited the toilet, through the exit door god knows.
But, I appreciate I am an extremely strong character, I let things go pftttt, and never let anything get to me, I have no baggage.
But, that doesn't mean that I needed time to adjust and understand it all, I did like everyone..
I chose not to let it affect me and I am a confident woman...
Perhaps you need a little bit of a hand to see that it's okay, it's not your parents fault at all.. That you are in fact beautiful and strong and that you don't "need" rather "want" out of life and will only accept those whom "want you"...
It's time to stand on your own and account for you and be you 100%, you don't need anyone rather, love what comes to you in life.
CW
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