Am there. Doing that.
It's a huge step that recognise your self-sabotoging behavior some don't and think they are being completely rational and thats a problem. I know that I am insecure, I know that I need my boyfriend to reassure me every once and a while and I am trying to be more confident and trusting of his feelings.
Its HARD. Especially if life has dealt you blows that leave you feeling like you deserve less than you have... and you don't know how to accept it, and constantly fear losing it. Sometimes I've had the urge just to walk out on the happiest relationship of my life because I am scared that he doesn't feel exactly as I do. I think, I'd be better off alone.. knowing no one cares about me than believing someone might when maybe they don't.
Its stupid. No other word for it. I am glad I can see it too, and am trying to change how I feel about myself , to help change how I allow myself to feel about the way he feels for me. If that makes sense.
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Defintion of Insanity: doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results." - Albert Einstein
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