How the do I get over "mourning" and get mad when I don't know what is going on??? This to me is much worse than a death in many ways! First of all, I have no closure because I have no answers. It is not like somebody had cancer or was in a car accident and I know why and that it isn't my fault. Second, nobody is dead, there is no real "end" to things. It seems only my life is over, not anyone elses, but nobody is mourning over me. Third, I didn't get to say good-bye, I know sometimes when people die you don't get to say good-bye either, but at least there is a funeral or grave or something to go to and feel closer to them one last time. Fourth, I will eventually have to see him again because of our little girl. I know we will see in court and then after that when he has visitation, at least if they let me see him even for a brief moment while picking her up or droping her off. How do you get over someone as if they were dead when the thought of them haunts you every second of every day and you will have to see them for the rest of your life?!?!? I am mad, I just can't get over the first part yet because I still do have a little hope. What you said about us "never being real to him" just made me cry. How could that possibly be true? I can't believe that and won't until I get more answers. I know that is probably , and maybe my answers will just come in a month or so when he hasn't contacted me and we are in court, but at least that will be something I guess. He was so close to our baby and saw her like every other day, I just can't imagine him being okay with not seeing her until after court stuff which could take months! I can't deal with this, I really can't.