Well this seems to be a theme for many of us. I don't think I'm controlling or clingy - maybe too much the other way. but have a long history poor relationship choices and rarely if ever getting what I want in a relationship. I tend to get into the trap of thinking that if I give enough, he'll start giving. But the men I've dealt with don't do that, they take but there is little reciprocosity, especially emotionally. It's hard not to think that somehow you just aren't worth it - especially if you've had a lot of it. When you give and give and find yourself just hoping for some kind words, something that shows caring...To look back and see how often it's happened, it's hard.
You have to keep doing nice things for yourself and being good to yourself. Telling yourself you are worth it. Men tend do what they do, usually regardless of how much pain it causes and then either get upset to learn you are hurt or defensive. Guess we are all slow learners?
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