I'm a male, by the way.
Stories like this never cease to amaze me.
You need to move on.
He hasn't talked to you in months? That means that he doesn't really care.
Don't kid yourself into thinking that things he does online are signs to you. If he wanted to continue the relationship he would tell you, not send smoke signals and hope you get the message.
The more you cling to this guy and E-stalk him, the more you are going to push him away.
Seriously...I know its hard, but let him go and move on. By sticking around you are just inviting abuse into the mix, for he will use you as long as you make yourself usable.